Thursday April 2nd: Later go be greater

Holy Thursday

“You will understand later.”

John 13:1-15

Let me tell all yuh the truth.

This has been a hard year for me. I was struggling with so much. Unemployment, menopause, aging parents, and a harsh spiritual awakening that revealed too much. My body and mind suffered, leading to severe depression and anxiety. In the words of the old people “I didnt know mehself”

On the outside, I appeared to be a woman of God but on the inside, me and God was having it out! It was like yuh cuss out somebody and tell them how dey mother make them and they just watch you and shake their head? Well, is so God and me was going! I could not understand.

Now, I appreciate everything I have been through. My new career took off with a bang! I love it now; I love taking care of my aging parents. It is a gift from God. That painful spiritual unseeing was necessary for me to forge a genuine relationship with God. I now see that depression and anxiety paved the way for untold opportunities. I finally understand how God was preparing me for something great.